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The End. How do you deal with your anger/fear/sadness?

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No shades of gray.

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No shades of gray.

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Inordinate pressure to succeed.

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Life changes.

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And I forgot about the word anorexia until about a year later when it turned out I wasn’t so different from Jennifer after all.

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With her orange hands.

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And then it was Summer again. I forgot about Jennifer…

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But I still thought her nails we despicable.

09.02.10

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And that she was perfect because she was scared.

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That she bit her pencils out of hunger.

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Once I knew what Jennifer had I could see that the button down shirts covered skinny arms and not a “perfect young lady”.

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Anorexia I didn’t really get it. In my stable tomboy world there wasn’t any room for the concept. But I loved the sound. Like “despicable” and “epidermis”, the other two words I loved that year, to my ears it had an interesting ring.

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08.20.10

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08.20.10

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08.20.10

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It took less than an hour for “personal reasons” to be translated into English.

08.11.10

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08.11.10

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Miss. Rassariz, our homeroom teacher, explained nothing.

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Then one day she stopped coming to school.

07.28.10

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The color gradually spread.

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I tried to imagine why.

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I’m not sure when it happened but at some point that year I noticed Jennifer’s fingertips had turned pale orange..

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I liked the way it sounded.

07.13.10

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It was my new favorite word that year.

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Secretly I called Jeniffer’s nails despicable.

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My nails were short. Still are.

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Her fingernails were so long they curled.

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growing

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06.30.10

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06.30.10

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But after several weeks of intense observation I realized she too had flaws.

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And her handwriting was beautiful.

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She always knew the answers.

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06.22.10

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06.22.10

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Jennifer was in my homeroom. She sat two rows ahead of me and was my opposite. That’s why she caught my eye.

06.22.10

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She always knew the answers.

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06.13.10

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And I’m still addicted to hair dye…

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I’m confident.

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I’m responsible.

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Besides now I’m an official adult.

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And when I was at my most depressed, the only thing I liked about myself or cared about, was the way I looked.

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05.10.10

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But when I was angry I turned my rage elsewhere.

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Or that it was an outward expression of inner hostility toward authority.

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You might think, as some people have, that my preoccupation with hair dye was a superficial way of dealing with my all too real and ever changing emotional states.

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04.27.10

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A few months after turning eighteen I took the whole cut and color obsession to its natural conclusion .

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I bought my first “product” with baby sitting money and never looked back.

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Anyway, by September I needed help.

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04.06.10

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Recently I asked her why.

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My mom never said a word.

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04.01.10

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It’s the chlorine.

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“It’s the sun.”

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When people said, “Tracy your hair’s gotten so light”, I was ready.

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It didn’t matter, I was hooked.

03.17.10

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The color was a little off more jelly bean yellow than L’ofake blonde.

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Then drying it in the sun.

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Dousing my hair.

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I figured hydrogen peroxide and whitening peroxide were in the same family so I went for it.

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03.17.10

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03.04.10

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But one day at Gail’s I had an idea.

03.04.10

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And my light brown shag was a far cry from sun kissed gold.

03.04.10

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Impatience prevented me from growing longer locks.

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that I wanted too.

03.04.10

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It started the Summer I was 13. My best friend Gail had beautiful, shimmery waist length blonde hair…

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I wish I had a photo for every shade and style but I don’t, just my memories.

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I’m a serial hair dyer. I like to cut it almost as much as I like to color it.

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ORANGE

orange

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