my other stuff
webcomics/cartoonists
some print comics
autobio. print comics
growing
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11.12.08
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11.12.08
that I’d had anything done. And even though I hate how plastic surgery homogenizes people
and the whole worshiping of beauty,
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11.12.08
with my friends who didn’t know till now
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11.12.08
I guess I’m a hypocrite when I look at magazines
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11.12.08
Sure it’s easy to say now that plastic surgery wasn’t necessary for me to feel better. But the fact is it did move me forward in my search for a different life and image. I don’t regret it and I mostly I forget I ever had it done.
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10.14.08
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10.14.08
I was happy and it only took one nose job, a move across the atlantic, a complete change in my appearance, environment and lifestyle, not to mention learning a new language, to do it.
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10.14.08
After a while I lived my life auf Deutsch.
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10.14.08
Cliched as it’s gonna sound, it felt great knowing I could do it. Really. Slowly I gained confidence and actually cared about doing well in class*.
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09.18.08
My ability to absorb German amazed me.
I’d been an utter failure at french and was convinced I didn’t have the “learn a foreign language” gene.
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09.18.08
and reinvented my image to fit with my idea of the new me.
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09.18.08
Had Helles beer delivered by the case to my home every month,
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09.05.08
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I enrolled in school to learn German and lived with a German girl who didn’t speak much English.
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Five months later I moved to southern Germany after getting a job, through family friends, as a ski
instructor at a teeny resort and no I didn’t speak the language.
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07.21.08
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07.21.08
But I soon realized surgically modifying my face wasn’t enough to transform me.
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07.21.08
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07.21.08
After being in my new apartment for a while physically altering myself in some way seemed the answer to my need for a MAJOR change.
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07.02.08
I was so desperate I even said yes to my mom’s pleading and went to family therapy, which actually worked for us…after a few years.
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07.02.08
But inside me was the determination to change.
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07.02.08
It looked more like this:
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07.02.08
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06.19.08
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and living with a mental boyfriend,
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06.19.08
barely speaking to my mom,
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06.19.08
But after two years of partying hard,
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06.19.08
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06.10.08
and begin a career in the food industry.
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06.10.08
Instead I chose to move out,
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06.10.08
My mom’s pleading only made me stand firmer in my resolve.
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06.10.08
Afraid of failure I stopped trying by 9th grade (except for English which I loved).
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06.10.08
At 18 I opted out of higher education. For some reason I had no interest in more
school.
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06.10.08
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05.12.08
I surprised even my close friends.
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05.12.08
The odd thing is that my nose was one of the few body parts I didn’t fixate on.
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05.12.08
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05.12.08
At least not by accident.
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05.12.08
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04.18.08
it was the same thing.
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04.18.08
But every time I went to the optometrist…
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04.18.08
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04.18.08
I’d have frames for any image.
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04.03.08
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03.26.08
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03.26.08
Twice a year I opened my mouth wide and hoped to hear those magic words…
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03.26.08
After school I practiced what I’d look like.
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03.26.08
If I had braces there’d always be stuff for me to talk about..
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03.26.08
I yearned to join the “I got my teeth fixed” crowd.
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03.26.08
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03.04.08
I longed for a cast that everyone could sign.
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03.04.08
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03.04.08
So I started praying for broken limbs.
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02.26.08
Naturally I wanted the same footwear as the rest of my grade.
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02.26.08
And I wore orthopedic arch supports until my feet reached their very average adult size of 6.5.
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02.26.08
When I was too little to remember I had a special night brace which helped correct extreme turn out.
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02.26.08
Before that I’d only been allowed to wear sneakers for gym.
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02.26.08
It was also the year I lived in one pair of shoes.
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02.21.08
It was around then that I stopped wishing I’d grow an extra inch or five.
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02.21.08
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02.21.08
reached her adult height of just under six feet when we were thirteen.
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02.21.08
Growing up my best friend Gail,
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02.15.08
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But I can sleep anywhere.
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02.15.08
And when I’m sitting my feet almost never touch the ground.
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02.15.08
There’s only one place I can go where the shirts always fit.
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02.08.08
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02.08.08
When I was 7 or 8 my mom took me for testing.
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02.08.08
At 5 feet 3/4 of an inch I’m no giant. Never was.
growing
02.08.08
i don’t know about you, but i always wanted to
be different. actually i wanted to fit in but
i also wanted to stand out.
know what i mean?
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