I Don’t Care

tracyTracy said:

three high schools in three years…high school was a nightmare. thank god i had drawing.

did you care?

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tracyTracy said:

8:40 AM

I relate to needing/wanting to feel like you are doing something significant with your creative life, that is something that has always driven me too.

Alison said:

3:48 AM

Also, I want to add that you are really awesome. And you’re helping a lot of people with what you do, by expressing yourself the way that you do. I really appreciate that. Thank you.

Alison said:

3:47 AM

I care. I care a lot more than I wish I did. I want to either care or not care. I guess I’m in-between. I write and draw very often, and it really helps. I’ve found it harder and harder to journal about myself, but poetry and stories seem to be helping, at least making me feel like I’m doing something significant with my “creative” life.

tracyTracy said:

12:40 PM

whoa, i thought four was a lot…thank you for letting me know about the stories. i write/draw them because i never know if anyone else feels like i do, so it’s nice for me to know i’m not alone.
And to answer your question about eric:
after i left the hospital we were still sort of together, but it was really REALLY not good. i broke up with him (not easy), moved and basically stopped all contact with him.

I will be writing more! Working on something new now.

Thanks for stopping by and for posting!

Hailey said:

11:24 AM

I so feel this. the begining i mean. i cant draw. I’ve been in 8 different schools since grade school (I’m 14 right now) I moved to england one year ago and went through the exact same thing. i just thought i let you know your storys have really inspired me and helped my through some really hard times. i bought your book in the US and brought it back to england.i loved it and my best friend read it too. we want to know how it ends? what happened to you and eric etc…. hope youll keep writing more and more and more x

julia said:

9:47 AM

that hit me in the heart man,beautiful.

Genesis said:

9:47 AM

I’m not in high school yet but i’ve been talking to friends and I’m going to be in high school with them for the first year but then i’m going to london for the last 3 years. I have barely any friends as it is and now that i’m going to move it’s going to be even harder. I’ve come to the conclusion that I just shouldn’t care. makes it easier.

mar said:

9:43 AM

In high school, I had plenty of friends in class, but when the bell would ring we would go our seperate ways. At first, I felt insecure walking down the hallway by myself, embarassed that I might do something stupid. But the other day I finally relized that I am secure now. I was walking down the hallway and tripped, instead of thinking how stupid I was I just laughed and walked on. I was so proud of myself. Thank you for your comics, I love them, they are so true to life

tracyTracy said:

9:43 AM

When I felt alone in High-School I withdrew even further.

zinzin said:

9:43 AM

I did find a haven in the Theater. I worked backstage and though I never had the nerve to try for an acting position I enjoyed being with such amazing people.

tracyTracy said:

9:42 AM

When I was in high school back in the 70s we didn’t have the internet. I didn’t have many friends and could not wait to graduate so I could get the H*** out of there! What has been interesting is attending my 10 year and 20 year class reunions. My former classmates were so nice to me at the reunions. They were completely oblivious to my plight during those 4 miserable years. Hmmmm..

tracyTracy said:

9:42 AM

In hindsight, I have no regrets about my loner past because it taught me a lot about my personal strength and gave my creativity an opportunity to ferment. ‘Good’ or ‘bad’, every experience I’ve had in life has made me uniquely me.

diane said:

9:42 AM

It seems that you have taken advantage of your experience, too. Your comics are GREAT–intelligent, artistic, and humorous…what else could you want from a comic?? Tracy, you go girl!

kimberly said:

9:41 AM

I am still in school, unfortunately, but whenever I feel depressed and/ or stressed out, I listen to music. I prefer adult contemporary. 🙂

april said:

9:41 AM

=} it made me happy to see you felt better at the end, and I hope that your life continues to be one you feel is worth living. keep drawing!

tracytracy said:

9:41 AM

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hi andres. i actually stopped drawing after high school for several years and then i started doodling again but the real breakthough came after i read Scott McCloud’s book, ‘understanding comics in school. it really inspired me to start making comics and to figure out how to present them online.

andres said:

9:40 AM

I read your story and i liked it very mutch.i think it was sweetly writen and drawn, and you used the mediud (the webpage) nicely too. my and my girlfriend both draw, though she hasnt drawn in a while and that makes me sad. I wish i has a story to tell, but even though i too kept to myslef, nothing interesting happened: high school just finished. i guess it all comes down to where i live (Argentina), everything seems to be adrift here… anyway, im just writing this stuff about me cause i wouldnt know what to say to you other than congrats, and what i said above. i wonder what do u do for a living? would you like to make comics for a living or is it more like a hobby? if its the former, good luck (youll need it, i guess…). reading your story was lovely. looking foward for more. andres.

tracyTracy said:

9:21 AM

At the moment my ‘cool’ friends are watcing a porno movie and I think that they are total idiots. There are two very beautiful girls here, who eally hate these kind of things, but they just have to stear it, because they think it’s cool, that it will make their dicks longer… Fuck them! So my point is: ‘Be yourself and fakk all the others!’ don’t cry, don’t try to kill yourself, dont do things that you think are stupid just to look cool. Trust me, most of the cool people are total idots. Be yourself!

tracyTracy said:

9:21 AM

I guess you really learned your lesson. That story was yet sad but a very good example for kids all around. You started out thinking that you were not good enough, but in the end you made it. I guess you only, not set a good example to others, but also to yourself. Just remember, be all that you can be and that’s it’s better that you tired then never tried at all. Good luck at future matters!!

tracyTracy said:

9:12 AM

Your comic brought back all these memories of high school. I had this friend who used to paint these elaborate designs on the spine of the cover (the regular face of the cover was pretty traditional in her designs). We both grew up; now i teach high school English, and she writed grisly erotic horror fiction. It’s been a long time since I thought about her tapes.
Thanks for making something so real and true!

tracyTracy said:

9:12 AM

….it had its ups and downs, but the ups were
REALLY up and the downs were bout as low as they could get…i made friends, lost friends, and realized who my true friends were….more than anything, though, i became a stronger person and more independent….there were times where i was so lonley all i had was myself…..and my boyfriend who alwayz seemed to be working

in a way, we both learned a lot about ourselves….school is for learning, but sum of the greatest lessons we teach ourselves

tracyTracy said:

9:11 AM

I liked your story about being a junior, but there wasn’t really an ending to it. Or, at least not the one I would’ve expected. Normally, I would’ve expected to hear you say that you met friends and became popular because you could draw and all of that garbage, but you didn’t.
It was a good story. Cry

tracyTracy said:

9:10 AM

I just want to say that I can sort of relate to part of it. This coming school year I’ll be in 11th grade. I had to switch schools in the middle of my freshmen year and believe me it wasn’t easy. Especially since i had never switched school systems before. I had the same kind of attitude you did after making ‘friends’ at this school that turned on me. I guess that experience made me paranoid. But some people I occassionally talked to found out I played guitar. We made a band and after that i wasn’t so lonely. Nice to know I wasn’t alone!

tracyTracy said:

9:09 AM

I read your story and it was really good. I actually can relate with your saying that you didn’t care about anything n growing out your bangs really long because I did the same thing only in ninth grade. You’re not alone. 🙂

sheena said:

9:07 AM

Hi this is Sheena and i just wanted to let you know that i really liked it…Sometimes i feel the same way you did, but i write my feelings down and sometimes they are poems and sometimes they are just letters to myself, but they make me feel better. I’m glad you feel much better now

tracyTracy said:

9:07 AM

I really liked your story. It reminded me of my friend Eva. She had a lot of problems, and I was really the only one who knew half of them, and a lot of times, she wouldn’t tell me the other half. It also kinda reminded me of myself. Eva and I were both loners, and we just sort of found each other. The bad part is that she has moved away and I haven’t seen her or talked to her in months. Mainly this is because I also moved and we didn’t get a chance to exchange addresses, but now I am off the topic. Good job, anyway.

genera said:

9:06 AM

I know exactly how you felt. When I was younger I used to play the cool one. I didn’t really talk to anyone and I would sit at home writing poems and going on the internet all day. it really was bad. I always had this hole in my stomach and nothing could fill it. I became anorexic. Then I met Mary. She became my best friend and showed me how easy it was to laugh and make friends. I am more comfident now. Although sometimes
when i get upset or lonely I just fish around the internet for hours at end. Like I’m doing right now. Well gotta go.

Genera

kate said:

9:06 AM

Hi. My name is Kate and I just read your story… I can
totally relate to it because I’mn going to my thrid highschool in three years and I’ll be in 11th next year. I hang out with friends from outside of school, but never really click with school people. I also know a lot about empty time, because I always push people away from me and keep a limited amount of company. Thank you for making a story that shows me that I’m not
alone, it was great.

shirlene said:

9:05 AM

I’m glad that you have made some friends and everything good luck at your next
school!! The story was GREAT!!!

Shirlene

karen said:

9:05 AM

we feel so bad for you and we hope that you make lots of new friends and stop
being so depressed. just remember, stick with your talents!!! you’re ver
lucky!!::()))))))))

Sincerely,
Karen @~~}~~}~~~~~

tracystacy said:

9:05 AM

to answer the questions below:

my life is happier.
i am not in school anymore.
i lioke myself, and am happy with my life.
my mom and i finally became very close, but it took a long
time and lots of effort from both of us.

thanks for your quesitons.

tracy

tracyTracy said:

9:04 AM

Dear Tracy,
Hey girl, I’m so glad you wrote that comic strip-it’s so true and honest. I am so
happy to know that there is someone out there that has the same kind of feelings
as I do sometimes. I hope your life is happier now. What grade are you in now?
How do you feel about yourself now? Is your relationship with your mom any
different? I would be very interested if you would write a comic about some of
these things.

tracyTracy said:

9:22 AM

yep
high school certainly blew didn’t it?–and i feel yer pain about moving schools so often–it felt like every new school i attended everyone knew everyone forever…

tracyTracy said:

9:21 AM

hi folks.

I really liked your story, because you exactly showed the pont of it. There is something good in every person and you shoud not be shamed of it. And if there are times, when you fell very lonely, then the best thing to do is to send everyody to hell. Fuck them, I’m the best! And if you want to be cool an you want to hanag out whit cool people (class leaders etc), then there is one important point I want to tell you. Cool peope suck! They are nothing but brainless idiots.